In a small Italian town, hundreds of years ago, a small business owner owed a large sum of money to a loan-shark.
Mission field living can be busy and boring at the same time. In moments of routine-ness, healthy activities can be helpful, however, there can be something else going on causing the dreariness.
Your perceptions and intentions in life do not establish the truth. Truth must be based in something much less volatile than our constant maturing views or becoming immature for some. It must be the cornerstone on which reality can be built.